The Rookie
What is happening to me?
Why am I here?
I want to go home to my family
I am so scared
Strangers are everywhere telling me what to do
Medicine? I’m not sick
Why are you keeping me here?
Am I being punished for something?
Diagnosis? That’s not my name and it doesn’t tell you who I am
I want to go back to the way things were before. What did I do wrong?
Where is my family?
They told me I would find help here so I could go back to my real life
Why are you telling me I can’t and how do you know?
I’m confused
I feel alone
No one understands me
Please help me I am in pain
I just don’t understand why am I here
I just want to go home
Been Here Before
I know how things work now
You try to fix me and I’m not broken
I’ve tried this before
You promised me last time that you were here to help me
Why am I here again?
Is something different this time?
Do you have something new to offer me?
Am I going to be ignored again?
Why don’t you ever smile?
You expect me to get better and not come back but you don’t provide me with the tools to live any other way
Don’t you know where I have been by now?
I need you to understand me
I don’t want this to be my life
I want the same things you do
No one ever told me I could be different than I am
How can I change if you continue to tell me the same things you always have?
Why should I have hope for a better life if I only see hopelessness in your eyes?
How can I not be angry?
THIS IS MY LIFE!!
Lifetimers
I have been hearing the same things for years
I have given up
I have been beaten down by a barbaric system
Every time I try to tell you what I need, you change my meds and call me a repeat offender
I won’t fight you anymore
I just want to be left alone
I want to be safe
You tell me change is possible but you continue to treat me the same
You tell me I can and then you tell me I can’t
What should I believe?
I’m tired
There is nothing that can help me, I’ve tried it all
All those lost years, it’s too late for me now
Definition of Insanity: Doing the same things over and over and expecting different results.
Brenda L. Johnson
